Monday, October 15, 2012

I'm alive...and I'm a missionary

Dear Family,
   Sometimes it feels so surreal that I am a missionary in Cambodia, that now even if I can't follow everything a member says I can get up in the morning and the first words out of my mouth are Vietnamese.  That when I get on my bike and I am praying for members I can only pray for them in Vietnamese.  This last week I struggled understanding members and not letting myself get overwhelmed because I couldn't say everything I wanted to and of course I know I have such a long way to go, but when I look at the fact I am speaking Vietnamese better than any other language I have learned (that's three by the way) I realize how much the Lord is helping me and how far I have come.  I am thankful for the Lord's help and blessings in my life.  I am thankful for His tender mercies, like having people send me letters or emails that covered just my concerns or not sending things when I really want them, but instead when I need them :-).
  Everyday I have the opportunity to meet members and hopeful investigators and share the Gospel of Jesus Christ with them, what a wonderful blessing.  Last night we visited a referral, who after meeting with her the first time we found out was actually a less active whose records had gotten lost, at first she didn't want anything to do we us.  But after multiple visits she finally let us in.  As I sat in shock at the fact I was actually sitting on her floor I realized neither Chi Pham or I knew what we wanted to say, but Heavenly Father knew what he wanted to say.  As I prayed to know he told me to share with her that He loves her, that the Gospel he sent into her life is true that Joseph Smith is the Prophet of the Restoration.  But mainly He told her that He wants her back, that it doesn't matter how far she goes or how long she stays away Heavenly Father always, always wants her back.
   The members here scare me, most of the time, they have so many grudges and have forgotten, if they ever knew, that this is a Gospel of love.  I love meeting with the members individually, however, whether Chi Khia, a woman with a young family who made roast chicken for us and put food into bowl for me or Ba Tu who made an awesome pair of pajamas for me (those pictures are still to come, but my computer is struggling at the moment) or Anh Vu who laughs at my Vietnamese, but knows exactly what I want to say.  These people are so amazing, loving and caring, they just forget it sometimes when they get in large groups.  But in the coming weeks Chi Pham and I will have the opportunity to share with them God's love for them individually and as a branch.  The more I ponder and learn about the atonement the more I realize, more people will be in the Celestial Kingdom then I ever realized.  We will all be there because Heavenly Father loves us so much.  There is so much to overcome in this life, and the Atonement is here simply to help us live life with a bit less sorrow.  I learned that yesterday.  Yes we need to use the Atonement to become what He wants us to be and yes we need to keep our covenants and the commandments, but sometimes we forget the simple message of the Atonement is that we are not alone and that we have someone to bear our sorrows and our burdens.  I testify that our Savior is the perfect redeemer he knows what we need when we need it and he is always there to lift us up and invite us back to live with our Father.
   I know my Heavenly Father loves me, that my Savior lives and that Jesus is the Christ.  May we all trust our Savior with our grudges, our burdens, our worries and our fears.  For when we can give those up, He has so much joy to share with us.
 May we all feel that joy is my hope and prayer,
Chi Dao
P.S Congratulations to Natalie, I am so proud of you and so very excited!
And Dad I'm glad you like the idea, now I have another wonderful thing to look forward to!

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